Picture yourself lying flat on your back gazing up into the endless space of the deep black night sky. The vast black canvas is dotted with millions of twinkling stars and it is difficult to imagine galaxies beyond what your eyes can see. Even more incomprehensible is the idea that God breathed these stars into existence and gave each of them a name. Psalm 33:6. Psalm 147:4.
A wrestling match exists between our knowing and believing. We know that God promises to not waste anything. For those of us who believe, He assures us that he will take our messy lives, our impossible situations and bring good out of them, Romans 8:28. When we are at the bottom of our grief face down in our tears and it feels like we are drowning in the hurt and pain of our circumstances, do we really believe that God is good? Does what we know about Him transfer into a belief that God has our best interest at heart regardless of how it appears or feels?
Imagine setting on the edge of your purpose enjoying a great sense of fulfillment. As you approach the season in your life where you feel like the sky is the limit, suddenly your circumstances change and now the future appears to be a giant black hole. Soon to be empty nesters, I have looked forward to moving back into full time ministry. Yet our move in six weeks seems to be taking me in the opposite direction.
Unaware of what direction God’s call on my life will take, over the past couple of months as we prayed through this decision, I have desperately asked for Him to show me my role. I longed for a glimmer of my future to claim as part of the confirmation of God’s leading us to Georgia. I finally surrendered to God’s will for our life despite the uncertainty of my role in it. Some days I am stronger than others, but I do choose to believe that God does have a purpose for me too, even though I cannot see it.
I have prayed the prayer Nic mentioned on Sunday, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief,” Mark 9:24. Belief becomes the gravity that keeps us grounded. Belief positions us to imagine without having to see all the details. Belief keeps our eyes pointed at the possibilities. Belief gives us courage to take the next step. Belief gives us hope that God will do far more than we can think or imagine, Ephesians 3:20.
In the struggle of knowing versus believing, know that there is a blessing that comes with believing.
“Blessed are those who believe without seeing me,” John 20:29.
“It is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him,” Hebrews 11:6.
On the brink of your daring to imagine, know that the star breathing God also knows your name. He does have a purpose and plan for you even if feels scary or uncertain. Like the galaxies hang in their designated place in the universe, “cling tightly to the Lord your God as you have done until now,” Joshua 23:8. Keep clinging to Him and His strong right hand will hold you up. Psalm 63:8.
And may you be blessed in every step you take in choosing to believe what you know.
By Janae Shatley Camp